Stanley Kubrick was his own toughest critic.
We all have projects that we are more proud of than others. Sometimes, despite our best intentions, things go wrong. That’s part of the magic of creating. And no one is left behind in these feelings unless they are delusional. Even Stanley Kubrick felt that way.
Kubrick is legendary for how precise he wanted his films to be. He’s done a lot of takes, edited obsessively, and we’ve reaped the benefits. But there was almost one Kubrick movie that we never saw.
Legend has it that Kubrick hates his first feature film, Fear and desire. You can watch it for free below.
The film was released in 1953 and was self-financed by money Kubrick made selling his photographs. It was a devastating anti-war film that starred Paul Mazursky. Even then, Kubrick developed his legend.
Mazursky recalled, “I thought he was a crazy guy with black eyes.”
To get extra money for the film, Kubrick even hosted chess games in Central Park. Kubrick always wanted more money to work on the film. Mazursky remembers Far our magazine, “He was so determined – ‘I’ll get the five. I’ll get the five thousand ”- he spat it on the windshield. I’ve never seen that kind of determination. ”
But in the end when Kubrick was putting the film together, he wasn’t thrilled with the overall product. It wasn’t what he wanted it to be, and that’s why he never wanted anyone to see it. The best way to make this happen? He would destroy it.
According to Marzursky, “Stanley tried to burn the negative. He hated the movie. Hated it.”
The film did come out, but as Kubrick got more famous, he managed to take the film out of circulation. In fact, he was so successful at this endeavor that it was previously only available through Bootleg.
After Kubrick’s death, private copies reappeared, and the film is now in the public domain.
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